Posted by tami on March 11, 1999 at 01:33:29:
I have posted a couple of other messages, but not lately. I feel like i should not be complaining about my problems, when so many of you have struggled with these for years. I have only had them for 1 1/2 years, but have had them (about 4-5) every day since June 1998 I am at the point that I am ready to give it all up, i just can't take it any more. On the other hand I have two boys (12 & 15) who mean the world to me. To give you a little background, I am a professional woman, 36, working as a stockbroker ( i can hear the groans from here) with two kids and a husband that I adore. I have worked my butt off for several years (as has my husband) so we can send the kids about anywhere they want to go to college, and retire in about 15 years. Now it seems as if all I love is about to be ripped from me. I cannot figue out how to hold down a demanding job, and do everything else I need to do, while I am virtually incapacitated several hours of every day. If any of you have been able to hold onto your lives pre-CH, please let me know how you did it. I am seriously considering ending it all, because it is just too much. Everyone expects so much from me, or maybe i expect too much. My husband and kids are pretty good about this, but i work in an office full of men who have wives at home to cook and clean and chauffeur the kids around. I have tried lots of meds and preventatives, but most only work a short while, then are ineffective. I love my job, but am tired of the dirty looks when I sneak out early (5:30), after being there since 7:30. The same thing happens every time i have a Dr.'s appt. Most of the guys have been helpful, but the branch manager just wants my clients, so he is looking for any reason to get rid of me. I will be up for a while tonight, please let me know what you're thinking.
Pain-free days for you all,
Tami