Posted by Kelly/a.k.a. eyeball on July 05, 1998 at 15:02:25:
Sitting home alone last night. I had time to reflect upon a message I read awhile back about fear,anxiety,and desperation.I think that these three disciples of CH, are sometimes more painful than the CH itself. Hard to believe though. Take myself for example. Last night the 4th of july, My wife and kids asked me to take them to the fireworks display. But out of fear and anxiety I refused to go. Thinking to myself what if I get a CH. I would ruin their fun,because they would have to take me home. I told them to go without me. It's been this way for about six weeks now hardly ever leaving the safety of home. I've never reached the point of desperation,I think because my wife and kids,and their love for me. I would never let them down. I often think about the people who aren't so lucky,they have no one to fall back on, to hold their hand when the pain gets to much to stand. For these people need to know that we are out here, never let these people,these brothers & sisters think that for one instance that they are alone. We are out here. Never forget that. We do know the pain, and we do care. Thinking of all of you. KELLY a.k.a. eyeball