Posted by Barbara D. on February 23, 1999 at 11:54:20:
I'm getting really concerned about all the references to suicide on this board. So let's get it out in the open and discuss it.
YES, we've all thought about it. We've seriously considered it and probably (if we admit it) have planned it a few times. I have prayed to God to just let me die because I couldn't stand anymore. Even tried to load my gun one time, but couldn't see the bullets well enough to get them in those little holes.
But then, we find a med or treatment that works for a while and the thoughts receed for a while. SO THERE IS HOPE. I've lost two friends to suicide (they gave up).
My first thought when I heard of their deaths was, "Well at least they're out of pain."
But, there is HOPE and thanks to this site (and our wonderful D. J.) we can all begin seeing a light at the end of the tunnel. Working together we can accomplish a lot, so put the guns away until we find a way out of this.
When you feel the urge, get on here and let us know how you feel. Everyone here is in the same boat and WE can help. There is a cure somewhere and we MUST believe we're gonna find it.
Hugs BD