Posted by Dave (205.188.192.151) on October 05, 1999 at 13:44:36:
I found this site out of frustration about
2 months ago, during a c/h cycle. I've learned
much from all of you and I've found myself upset
to learn that there are so many of us. I am pissed
off and frightened as hell that the next cycle can
come at any time. I scare my wife and my infant looks at me as if surely I can't be the same Daddy she loves
so much. I have been depressed much of my life and
don't know to what extent the pain has contributed
to this. My employees even notice the changes in me.
Please tell me that my dear child will not suffer
as we do. I want so much for her and I would give anything as long as she and my wife never experience
the pain we all have felt. I am rather antisocial
so I may never post again. I will pray for and keep
you all in my thoughts.