Posted by Bernadette (204.115.229.49) on July 23, 1999 at 10:52:21:
Hello Fam,
I know that it has been some time since the last time that I posted but I have been so down, so out and so dag gone depressed that I just wasn't in the mood to cry on anymore shoulders. I know that the last you guys heard from me I was going in to get that dreadful spinal tap done. Well the day that I went in to get it I was stuck not 1 not 2 but 8 times in my spine. They tried to numb the area but after two complete bottles of lidocane and eight needles in my spine they decided that it wasn't going to work that way. Well I ended up on my back for 3 days after that in total pain. They then decided that they would have me come back and have it done again but this time they would use the x-ray machine so that they would be able to see exactly where they are going. Can someone please tell me this, why didn't they try this the first time. Well anyway that procedure was done on Monday and I am still in a great deal of pain but nothing like the first time. Now on top of all this they are having me take every blood test known to man, looking for every disease that they can possible think of and this is totally destroying me. I have just been filled with so much trama in dealing with these doctors and I just don't know what to do anymore. They give me bad news and then no answers. They have me take blood test for several fatal diseases and no one tells me anything. All I keep hearing is that they need to wait for the results to come back but in the mean time has anyone offered me any counceling services to ease my worries....NO. Well I have one councelor who is very good at listening to me and he actually has been listening for quite some time now. My councelor is GOD, without him I don't know where I would be at this moment.
Family, I am so sorry that I haven't been posting but I hope that you all can understand the drama that has been going on in my life, I just didn't know how to handle it but today I have to remember that with God all things are possible and remember that no matter what these doctors put me through God will not give me more than I can bear.
I haven't had a chance to read through all of the post but I hope that many are pain free. You all have been in my heart and in my prayers. I love you all.
Bernie