Posted by deb e (216.46.198.217) on April 03, 2001 at 17:58:53:
In Reply to: FEELINGS, FEELINGS OF PAIN , AM I UNDERSTOOD? posted by Yoke on April 03, 2001 at 16:15:58:
who of us can go thru life with a demon in our heads that chooses how and when to attack us? when we feel we have lost all control over what we can do, where we can go, who we can talk to in total honesty and have them understand. how can we not all be a little or sometimes alot insane and begin to doubt all we knew?
if i was a sane person i would tell you all the logical reasons why you feel the way you do, but then i wouldn't be truthful cause i am a CH'er and that takes me far from logic most days. living under constant pain or thoughts of returning pain combined with all the other added stresses of life it's a true miracle we have stuck it out this long. you are just feeling what i think evereyone goes thru, lost and helpless. it'll pass but it sure feels shitty right now i know. i had it last night and joined some of the other posters here in killing the brain waves ..and cells too.. by shooting shots of whiskey and making myself totally miserable by adding the meds and i even smoked ... YIKES !!
the worst was i didn't wake with a HA but i had the worst case of arfing :-p you ever saw and after that was over.. you guessed it, the beastie reared it's ugly head!!!! so dear Yoke, keep those thoughts coming and never fear... superCHbeaters are here!! take care
e-mail me.. you're safe now :-)