Posted by Margi (161.184.81.207) on January 24, 2001 at 10:05:06:
In Reply to: Please Help me! posted by Betty on January 24, 2001 at 04:08:09:
Betty, I have seen Mike reach the point you're at so many times. Good thing he has carpentry skills because we've definitely had cluster holes in the wall over the years from his anguish and brutal attacks he's survived.
However, and this is a biggie....Mike has done an amazing thing. He has taught himself how to ride through the pain, forces himself to be calm. I can tell that it takes every ounce of strength the man has in order to achieve this. But I tell ya what....it's made a HUGE difference in how he battles the Beast.
I've taken his blood pressure during an attack (which in itself was excruciating for him, but he let me do it) and, it was stupidly high. See, this was before he taught himself the calming technique. I wish I could tell you how he does it, but I can't. He used to pace. He used to rock. He used to slam. But he has learned (after 20mumble mumble years of fighting) that THAT's what the Beast wants. To get you upset. To fight back.
Betty, now Mike's attacks last a much shorter time. He sits on the couch. He stays quiet. O2 doesn't always work for him either. He breathes through the pain. He is the toughest man I know, I've see him run a table saw through the end of his finger and it wasn't that big a deal. He has just learned to deal with it. And it's made it much easier for him.
I don't know if this helps you or not, but it's what came to mind when I heard the desperation in your words.
Now, dramamine....maybe you should take a little more? How many did you take? Mike is 5'7", 155 pounds and he takes 3 before bed if that helps you to figure out your proper dosage.
Always here by email too if you need me.
Hang in there.
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Margi