Posted by Todd (64.34.202.197) on January 12, 2001 at 13:24:30:
In Reply to: It has been a rough night. posted by Little Liberty on January 12, 2001 at 11:57:46:
LL, it was hard to read your post. As like many, I would think, I saw myself in Nathan's barn. I felt the impacts when I kicked the sand bag. I beat the wall and didn't even realize how ripped and bloody my hands became. Like steve, I know that the bullet was meant for the Demon - not as a means to suicide. I often seriously consider decapitation as a "treatment". During an attack, the fact that this would result in my death never occurs to me.
It is unfair of me to say what I'm about to, and I will gladly accept your wrath or that of anyone else who finds this suggestion distasteful, but I feel I must make it.
You said "how do you make these people understand what hell this is?". We all struggle with that all the time. Perhaps Nathan can help. Can you contact your local television stations and newspapers and tell them? Let them know that Nathan is the latest victim of "suicide headaches". That tacky name has just the kind of crass sensationalism to it that the media loves.
Yes, I'm suggesting "using" Nathan's last desparate act as a means of getting media, and hopefully, public awareness to the tragedy of CH. Clearly I didn't know Nathan, but I know that if I had done the same, I'd be pleased to have you all capitalize on it to increase the awareness of what we suffer. I can think of several dozen others I've met here who would likely say the same.
Lastly, if I can help in any way - either you or your husband, please feel free to email me (if you don't hate me right now).
KTSSU,
T