Posted by Anonymous on February 03, 1999 at 10:05:58:
An apology to Bob G, Jackie M and Doug. I really seem to have offended you. I will not post about this again. I like all of you suffer from this terrible condition. I am to the point of being suicidal. I'm not joking. That is the truth. That's not a threat and I sincerely don't mean to worry anyone. What I should have said was do I deserve this pain? Depression manifests itself in many ways, pain included. I don't think it's a punishment from God nor am I a relegious fenatic. Sorry about the spelling, I don't have my dictionary in front of me. I'm reaching out asking every one of you for help. I'm thinking in my mind here, insurance policies, 401K, pension, bills, what to do with the cat, etc.
Do I really want to do this? You people have been my only link. I go to work and then come home. That's it. You all have been good to me and I really appreciate that. This web site? Fantastic!! I remember that in my 20's the headaches got so bad that I broke down and called my room mates doctor. I was sort of poor and didn't have insurance at the time. He prescribed me tylenol #3. The pain was so bad that within 2 hours I had taken 7 pills. I finally passed out and woke up about 2 hours later with a really bad stomach ache and still had a headache though not as bad. In as far as the bible is concerned. It says that the taking of one's life is a sin. I believe that and respectfully remind you again that I am not a fenatic. I certainly don't think that any of you deserve your pain. By all accounts this condition is passed from one generation to the next, regardless of what doctors say. Just getting up out of bed for me is a real chore. To be sure let me say: I'm not asking for your sympathy just your understanding. Would you not be anonymous as well? When I'm at work I almost start to break down and cry because I just feel so bad, my mind racing and knowing that I'm really on the edge. I just don't know what I'm going to do. Thanks you all for listening. If you happen to be a person who prays would you just pray for me? I would appreciate that very much. I suppose you've had pranksters here before. God, I can assure you that I'm not one nor have I ever been one.