Hoping for an end to the episode soon...

Posted by Todd Owen (24.4.254.97) on March 20, 2000 at 19:06:04:

Another day off of work because of the beast. More hours shot just trying to make it through. I can't see the light at the end of the tunnel. I hope it's there, I feel like I'm stumbling along blindly.

The only thing giving me hope right now is my wife. She is telling me that the last time my clusters started to get this frequent and severe was right before the end of my last two episodes. God I hope so. One of those days where you go to take a shower in the morning and spend most of your time on the floor from the pain. Plenty drugged up later, the beast is beaten down. No way I'm driving in to work though. So spend the day at home. Try and sleep off the painkillers, but the beast finds me again in my slumber.

I'm hitting a 6 1/2 right now. It's down from the 8 is was half an hour ago. It's getting to be too much anymore. I need a break from the pain, a day where the beast is gone and I can enjoy life without feeling sore from injecting myself or dopey from painkillers. A day to go have fun with my wife and kids without the beast interfering.

I can only hope my wife is right...

Todd Owen

Follow Ups:

• Todd Christine 04:57:27 03/21/00 (0)
• There is always a DV shot to break a cycle, if nothing else NickD 23:24:47 03/20/00 (7)
  • What is a DV shot? nt Bernadette 09:59:08 03/21/00 (6)
    • A Demerol (150 mg max)/Vistaril (25 mg max) shot in the hip NickD 10:45:50 03/21/00 (5)
      • Not quite sure if I should try this Bernadette 15:20:22 03/21/00 (4)
        • Where we live CyndiS 17:28:28 03/21/00 (0)
        • My hospital won't even give the shot unless they see a driver NickD 16:03:44 03/21/00 (2)
          • God, my husband, and my daughter are all that I really have Bernadette 16:27:45 03/21/00 (1)
            • You could try the Orajel toothache medicine NickD 16:51:15 03/21/00 (0)
• The light will come August 23:23:07 03/20/00 (0)
• Wishing CyndiS 21:45:36 03/20/00 (0)
• Oh Todd! Elaine 20:49:28 03/20/00 (0)
• Todd Doug L 20:23:03 03/20/00 (1)
  • Severe to .... Bennie Sue 02:24:17 03/21/00 (0)
• keep the faith Don NH 20:06:16 03/20/00 (0)
• Hang in there Todd Rider 19:10:52 03/20/00 (0)

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