Posted by Margi (207.148.137.152) on February 17, 2000 at 16:25:43:
In Reply to: Not asking for help just forgivness! posted by Elaine on February 17, 2000 at 15:37:33:
You have unbelievable courage. In the last 12 month period you have been through so much (not to mention the 19 years of non-stop CH) and yet you have never lost sight of how others are feeling....you sent me an email once when we went away for the weekend. That you were worried that I wasn't posting. That amazed me that anyone even NOTICED that I wasn't posting. But you were WORRIED. This was just after your aneurysm last year. Just blew me away that you even found the time to write that email with all that was going on in your life.
Over this last year, you and I have spent HOURS on icq, we've cried on the phone (remember THAT? LOL), we've laughed ourselves silly (I'm sure my boss thinks I'm a REALLY happy employee), you've sent me gifts, one that made me laugh, one that choked me up. You've tried to run away a couple of times but I keep hounding you to come back and you've tried to kill me a couple of times too, but I won't let you do that either. I feel like I've known you all my life and yet we've never met.
You get so frustrated with yourself and yet you don't see yourself for what you are. You don't realize the impact you've had on the people here, the lives you've touched, how many people AROUND THE WORLD were pulling for you last Monday night...
and now you're worried that you've upset people. *Sigh....if you would stop and THINK for one minute, missy, you would realize that everyone out here understands that you may be frustrated right now. That you may be a little quick to jump right now, because things aren't yet back to perfection for you yet. People UNDERSTAND, Elaine. You worry too much. YOU are your own worst enemy, lady. So, you have problem with numbers FOR NOW. So, you get frustrated FOR NOW. Patience, my dear....it will all come back. What you have to do is take a breath and enjoy each day as it comes. Each day you and I talk, it sounds to me as if a little more is coming back.....you are typing with BOTH hands now, you told me today!!
Now quit worrying and get this class back under control. I can see Ted and Jonny over there wadding up paper for spitballs, and I'm afraid to tell you what that new guy Chris is doing. LOL
Love
Margi