Posted by Elaine (24.88.1.116) on February 17, 2000 at 15:37:33:
I have never been one to ask for help! I needed help and I didn’t tell anyone. I tried to handle everything on my own. Cancer, a bad marriage, a stroke, and dealing with clusters. I tried to be super woman. I have tried so hard not to show my fears, my pain and in doing so I got real touchy with some very good people. Not that they did anything to me, it was just my fuss was getting shorter and shorter and they were there when I blew up. I don’t have any good excuses it was my fault. I am truly sorry for anything I have said or done to anyone here, that has cause them any pain what so ever.
I am not as well as I have made out to be, everyday thing are twice as hard for me now. I find myself getting mad as I try to do things such as sweep the floor or pick up something or type a post. Working with numbers is not possible any more for me. Simple things are no longer easy. I won’t ever give up I WILL be able to do them again.
I am asking forgiveness for having a shot fuss. I truly am sorry. You people have been great to me just wonderful, I could not have got this far with out any of you.
Please forgive me! Know how important you all are to me!