Posted by Marcus on October 14, 1998 at 01:31:15:
Hi everyone.
I just got over an attack. I've been going 5 weeks now non-stop. 4-6 attacks per day. No sleep. No relief. I'm exhausted. I keep telling myself this hell is going to end soon, but I'm beginning to think that it's not. I can't think. I can't eat. I can't leve my house. When I'm not in pain, I'm in dread of it coming back.
The attacks are increasing in intensity everyday and I sometimes think that I will go mad. I try everything to ease them a little and nothing seems to be working. I really don't know how much more I can take.
I keep telling myself that I am strong enough to deal with it. I've been doing it for a long time now. But then the next one hits and I become a wimpering little baby with no strngth what-so-ever.
My only saving grace is being able to do this- write this down and know that you will understand like no one else can.
I'll close my eyes now and hope that maybe I will sleep a little before the next one hits. Thanks for being here. Marcus