Posted by doug l (152.163.206.201) on October 03, 1999 at 12:32:44:
after 11yrs with ch and thinking i could deal with anything i had finaly had eneough. the season is changing and my headaches came back worse than ever. then my husband of 5yrs and i started having major problems. i tryed to talk to him about our problems and he just turned me off. it stressed me out so much that i started to get a ch. at that point i decided that that was it. everyaspect of my life sucked. i had brand new scripts of verapamiel, lithium,vicoden es, and imitrex. i took it all. with in mins i was having seasures. the only thing i remember is being in the er with a tube stuck down my throught. and then waking up in icu being told that i was not alowed to leave untill the physirast said that i could leave. i felt like i was in jail. something that i have always known that i could never deal with. i had no privlages. was not alowed anything from home to meake me feel better. i decided that that was worse than dealing with my problems while i was locked up in the hospital. i now regret what i did. i have to go to the phychiraest every week starting tomarrow or they will come and make me ck into a unit for who knos how long. ive done some stupid things in my life but this one has toped them all.
EVERYONE!!!! DO NOT DO THIS. IT IS NOT WORTH WHAT YOU HAVE TO GO THREW AND WHAT I PUT THE PEOPLE IN MY LIFE THAT DO CARE THREW.
im sorry this is not so well written but i just got out and im still very shakey and not feeling to well.
IM SO SORRY THAT I DID THIS.
im going to go to bed now
thanks for listing
doug lutz
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