Posted by Jonathan Poulter on September 09, 1998 at 08:33:42:
In Reply to: Misery posted by GhostRyder on September 08, 1998 at 20:34:30:
Geeze :-( I thought I had it bad. I can totally relate to you
posting about being at the end of your tether. I was about ready
to end it yesterday, the drug are making me over emotional and I'm not sleeping
at night either which doesn't help my mind..
I don't really no what to suggest, other than to say that this moment
of disbelief that you can continue will pass, and you'll be strong again.
You have to.! Not just for yourself, but for all of us. I would love to just lay down
and go to sleep forever and never have to suffer from another bloody headache, but I
can't bring myself to end it while I'm not in pain, and when I'm in pain I can't do anything
anyhow.
I really want to help, I know it seems like why should we bother when it's never ending.
But we can't give up. I wish I could actually shake your hand. Just to meet someone who
understands what we live with. You may have read my previous post, I've been chronic for about 14 months
and have had clusters for 6 years, a combination
of the drugs, fatigue, the look of my very pasty body, and my mind giving in, caused me to
go into a black spell.
I've been fighting for so long and need a holiday. I can't imagine dealing with chronic
clusters for as long as you have, but I need you to fight for my sake if not for your own, because if you can't go on,
then I can't see how I will.
Please hang in there.
I hope you're not offended by my posting. I just need hope as much as you do..!