Posted by Amanda Best (216.164.7.103) on August 18, 1999 at 07:19:19:
In Reply to: FINAL POST!!! posted by Carl D on August 18, 1999 at 02:11:06:
Believe it or not I need you here. I know some people have unnecessarily attacked you but that is because they are lost and confused and completely shallow.
I have not really spoken with you but I too am completely alone. No meds work for me and I also experience 10-12 ha's daily. I have not left my house in 5 months except to go to the Dr.
I am not trying to compare my pain to ypurs, I am just trying to say that I think I can understand and relate.
I often feel exactly the way you post. The difference being, I have a hard time expressing it. I rely on your posts because they help me go through the emotions instead of keeping them inside. YOU SAVE ME EVERYTIME YOU POST! You bring the Amanda back. The hurting Amanda, but the REAL AMANDA! I get so caught up tiptoeing around everyone here sometimes that it just makes me numb! You enable me to cry, scream, and LAUGH.
I want to be there for you, I am not sure how that can be but please know it to be true.
Ignore those people who attack you. They need to look at their own lives and do some heavy duty soul-searching. It's obvious that they have other issues to deal with. They are just directing their disgust against you when it would more properly be done looking in a mirror.
Please keep posting, you need us as much as we need you.
Email me anytime, maybe we can talk?
All my Best,
Amanda