Posted by Jackie M. on August 07, 1998 at 23:54:24:
In Reply to: Re: Tired of fighting the Demon posted by Paul on August 07, 1998 at 21:53:38:
Thank you Bob and Paul for your encouraging words of support. I pray this does not sound ungrateful, but you see, what I am trying ask others here, is if there might be anyone else who feels as though they can not fight anymore. All the failed attempts with meds and treatments begin to wear down one's morale almost as much as the pain itself. As for my family, believe me they (my children) are the only reason I kept up the fight for 24 years. But now they are young adults, and for the most part are impacted by my cluster attacks in a very negative way. The fibromyalgia heaped on top of the clusters has just made me not only virtually useless to them, but often times a burden. How is my being here to fight the fight of any good to them now? I know this may sound awfully selfish to many, but I have been a good mother and given them the best I could through all these years. It is more than anything else, my love for them that makes me question the value of continuing the fight. I can assure you, my children are my life too.
Thanks again,
Jackie M.