Posted by Carl D on June 11, 1999 at 16:03:17:
Hello Everyone. How are we all today? Are we smiling all big and bright? Not I. For I am abnormal. I have forgotten how to smile. I am not here to feel or express feelings or emotions other than pain and suffering. Laughter and fun are not in my extended programming, just anger and frustration. I am still human in certain areas: My thresholds are yours; my feelings are yours; My limits are yours; my understanding is well... far beyond what you could ever know.
Please don't pick a fight with me,ok? I have greater battles before me today. What I must endure you cannot fathom. Free to be tortured 24/7. Just to look at you makes my stomache twist. And the pain once more rips upside my head. Wish you were here to feel this!!!
This is how I feel at the moment. Just got off the phone from an idiot disguised as a friend, 5 CH weds, 4 Thurs, and 3 so far today. ready to die anytime now.