Posted by Arlene on May 21, 1999 at 00:02:35:
In Reply to: Re: Spouse of a CH Sufferer posted by Buddy on May 19, 1999 at 21:30:25:
I am the CH sufferer, and when I am hurting so bad, I don't want anyone near me, and particularly talking to me. I get so angry and scream to just leave me alone. I feel guilty about yelling at my husband, but when I am going through a CH, I turn into another person. He does understand, but he wants so much to help me, that it is difficult for him to not talk to me. I am also my husband's caregiver, as he is in very poor condition with Cancer, which makes my guilty feelings even worse. I need to be there for him, and this demon in my head won't let me. Many times I am at a loss, at how to handle our life situation at this time. Dan is on O2, 24 hours a day, and has no energy to do anything, and I have other medical problems besides CH (which is the worst one to put up with)and both Dan and I are feeling very depressed. Reading the messages on this BB have helped me a lot. I hate to see so many people with CH, but I no longer feel like a hypochondriac and so alone. You all are one great bunch of people. If there's anything good I can say about Ch or Cancer, it's that it brings out the best that is in us, in the way of becoming a much more caring, compashionate person, and makes us realize how precious each day is. My blessings to all of you - you are all tops in my book.
Hugs, Arlene