Bad thoughts....
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Posted by Brad W. (205.188.196.41) on August 28, 2001 at 11:53:33:
This is really hard to type. I've gone back and forth wondering if I should say anything. Sometimes, it's hard to admit things. I have been having some disturbing thoughts in the last two days. It seems to me, at this stage, that it would be easier to just curl up and die than face the Beast.
Please don't misunderstand me, I'm too chicken to do anything to myself. But I keep having these 'fantasies', if you will, about dying. I think about things like; 'if I could just have a heart attack' or 'why can't I just have an aneurysm and get it over with'.
I don't want to sound melo-dramatic. I don't want to sound stupid. Lord knows I feel stupid typing this.
I saw a post recently that included some sites for help. I tried searching for them, but was unable to find them. Can someone please post a link that you might know of? I just need someone to talk to, I think.
Hope this doesn't sound too stupid.
Peace,
Brad
Follow Ups:
- Glad you posted this Paula 23:59:46 08/28/01
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- Brad, you don't know me and i only know you from your posts but... drhoser 23:31:04 08/28/01
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- I am here for you Bro.... nancyc 17:19:15 08/28/01
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- 6'2, 260 pound man that thought he was tuff scott 16:18:55 08/28/01
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- Brad, there is no one here that hasn't thought of something like: Maybe I'd be Charlie S 13:39:28 08/28/01
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- Brad you just posted in Cluster Heaven! Elaine 13:14:38 08/28/01
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- Six foot, 210 lbs, grown man and don 13:10:52 08/28/01
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- you are not stupid barney 13:02:12 08/28/01
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- Hold On: Brad, please read this......... TerryS 12:59:06 08/28/01
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- lots of people care about you here Brad!!!!! nt Ree 12:51:24 08/28/01
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- Brad,you have e-mail trip 12:48:49 08/28/01
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- Here is a link, Brad Margi 12:45:11 08/28/01
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- bad thoughts charley 12:44:20 08/28/01
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- There's more, I think Ted 12:27:01 08/28/01
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- Never feel stupid ShariRae 12:17:56 08/28/01
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- Certainly NOT stupid, Brad!!! Margi 12:15:28 08/28/01
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- those are pretty selfish thoughts...We're all fighting this WITH YOU BRAD!!! Ree 12:14:31 08/28/01
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