Posted by Jamy (209.180.170.82) on August 26, 2001 at 16:29:34:
For two years now I have been on 1 5mg Ritalin twice a day and 20mg of Elevil at night. I have had maybe four breakthrough killer headaches, but for the most part I have been skipping along. June 23 of this year I fell. I tripped over a curb I had been complaining about to the apartment management company. I hit my head and from that day and still now I am being paralyzed once again by pain. Again I now know personally all the people in the ER. I have been through countless medical trials, most of which the side affects were unbearable. My life has come to a resounding halt and dehuminization is a daily affair. Every day with out fail I am stalked by that day's pain. I live a life of fear and paranoia. This time I get to add mini-blackouts to my repertoire . My boss has recinded on a $2 an hour pay raise because he says my mental abilities are now diminished. Little does he know what I really think of his. His and the ER docs statements and accusations are finally getting to me. I am a strong woman who is exhausted and not feeling so strong anymore. This is the only place I know of where I can whine and carry on and no one will tell me to just get over it and grow up. Thanks for letting me vent once again.
Jamy