Posted by Georgia (64.209.31.181) on August 10, 2001 at 11:43:52:
In Reply to: im in elaines chat posted by den on August 10, 2001 at 01:25:46:
You finally show up here for more than 2 seconds and it happens to be the one night I actually slept. (I guess mixing butalbital with zanaflax and some kava kava and some melatonin will do that to a girl - but I did avoid the horse tranqs this time)Dammit. Dammit.
You just waltz in here..profundity dripping from your fingers, tears welling in your eyes, purest love flowing from your heart....and I missed it. I missed you. I miss you. Terribly. Horribly. And I hate this. I hate that Adam is sick. I hate the god that let this happen and yet I beg of him every minute of every fucking day to make Adam well. And I just wish there was something I could do. Something to make it ok. I told my shrink yesterday (ya, I started counseling, just to prove I am crazy I guess) that I would try to make it to my appointment next week, but I may just be in Texas. The way I figure it, if I could just hold Addy's hand tight enough, then nothing could hurt him anymore and if I could just hold yours tight enough, then..then...the pain would stop for you too. But it doesn't work that way and these hands aren't magical.
Dennis O'Connor, you've got this girl on her knees, eyes searching the heavens heavy with tears, praying as hard as this tattered soul can.
Tell Addy I send my love. I will call soon. Right now, I am out of cigarettes and out of tissues.
If there is anything, anything, I can do......
I love you Denny.
~ g