Posted by dawn (198.81.17.59) on June 14, 2001 at 13:02:35:
that I have to admit that I need help. I want to hide from the world, from ch. Yet I also want a hand to hold, and a hug that never ends. Today I am weak. Yesturday I was strong. It is funny how one day I can get through, and the next I break down and cry. Today I am tired. Not, I need to go to sleep, tired, but just...I need help, tired. Anybody know what I mean?
I just have to keep telling myself not to give up...no matter how much I want to .....DONT
I am so pissed off that nobody knows why I have ch, and there is no absolute cure....how are we all supposed to make it through life like this?
We all have our lives outside this little message board, and I have to say, mine sucks. My husband is such a jerk. An unloving jerk. It is as though I am expected to be this wondermom, even though I am sick, and have these damn ch....Fuck him....fuck ch...............