Posted by karina (63.237.141.169) on June 01, 2001 at 06:09:00:
it is very difficult to know what might or might not be working when so many things are being taken at one time. You folks who go through it know better than I, but what I see is that when time goes on, years pass, nothing works that used to. Applying pressure to artery in that side of neck has always worked as an abortive during mild attacks, but not even that has helped, and too dangerous anymore. It just seems like there are many strange things that never occured before that are during this cycle, and the fear of it recurring over and over through day and night is enough to continue using meds. The days have been better during the past few days, but the nights are taking over again. Trying very hard to use nothing more than the lithium, topamax, varapramil but seems like unable to make through night without at least one of the amerge & o2 at the least. Goes back to neuro the 20th, and hopefully this will have ended till then and we can try to return to whatever our normal life is.
My momma told me at a very young age that God does not give you more than you can handle, but he is really testing now. Not only all the stuff going on with hubby, brother dying from hep C, Mom, after two bypass surgeries, needs heart cath done again and prob is not good candidate for another bypass, and faithful dog friend,first born male child in this childrenless home, Dillenger, having major medical problems.
Somehow the strength comes from somewhere, but right now I feel as though I am weakening.