Posted by nancyc (205.188.193.156) on May 27, 2001 at 14:53:22:
I need you to stay...you are a good reminder to us all of just how tough we are...and you remind me of just how good it feels to be clean...and not have to wake up everyday and count out my pain pills to see if I have enough in the bottle to get me thru the day. You are pretty smart..Yes, I was stressed Friday..rough day at Rehab. gets that way sometimes seeing people suffer. Guess that comes with being compassionate. Had to get away, walk thru some tranquil waters, get some strength, come back, slay some dragons, sweep some cob webs from my life and regain some inner strength. Now I can smile again. I feel good..and I am not high on drugs brother. It upset me that you were trying to peddle that stuff on my family here. You have to remember what I see everyday. But maybe you are a good reminder to us of what it will do to you. My heart goes out to you. You may never feel our kip 10' (or so you say) but you will also never feel our emotions either...you know those feelings when you see a rainbow after it has rained or those feelings you get when you fall in love or that excitement you feel when you plant a flower garden and the flowers start blooming..all those good emotions.. those things that opiates numb. Sometimes we need weeds in the garden to appreciate the flowers. My heart goes out to you...cause I do feel..If you ever need me..I am here. smiles, nancyc