Posted by Clyde (151.144.238.10) on May 25, 2001 at 09:54:50:
I thought they were gone until yesterday. The first one was at work. I hate to have them at work. Everyone wants to know what's wrong, what does the doctor say, you need a new doctor, my cousin get migraines too... I think their intentions are good, but I feel like a monkey in a zoo. Last night was bad, 8 on a scale of 1 to 10. My wife is soooooo strong. She has the Lidocaine and O2 for me. She never complains about the attacks and is always there for me. I don't know how much more of this I can take. Its been three weeks and I'm in a fog. It has consumed my life. My last cycle in 98 lasted only 10 days. I've tried it all, meds, exercise, yoga, water, massage, diet, etc. I'm turning to you God. It's in your hands. You put this thing in my head to test my strength. I got news for you, I can take it. I have 2 kids and a wonderful wife, so bring it on. It's going to take a lot more than this to bring me down. I have a question. Has anyone ever felt hopeless. Have you ever felt like one more night like that and I might not get up off the canvas. Please share your thoughts with me. I could really use some positive feedback.