Posted by L.Cardon (213.82.164.194) on May 18, 2001 at 10:10:29:
Sorry to bother, I'm new to this forum, my name's
Luca from Italy, I'm 25 and I'm under attack on
periodical basis since 4 years.
Now, just now, since three days, the beast has come
back, just to remind me that this *unique* pain and
sensations are always part of me, ever if I missed
they since a year...
Thanks to CH, this part of my life again changed,
and now my question is about the feeling, that in every
good time I seem to forgot, that during an attack,
I feel *really* something evil, foreign, just like
an "entity" inside me, something too big to handle,
in terms of power and energy.
Maybe it's a too "esoteric" point of view, I know, but
after drugs, drugs, and drugs again, medical opinion and
still no progress, this opinion for me now is just a
temporary "pseudo"-calmant to think of...
I think also that most of you out
of there, and it's like an attenuant for me, can
comprise how is the psychological situation during
those periods and so why I'm talkin' in this weird
manner...
By the way, no one with these feelings during an
attack?
Cheers, sorry for my english. (agravated by writing
with a post CH on my body... ;))