Posted by ScottL (24.181.198.48) on May 14, 2001 at 03:54:28:
I am a chronic sufferer who has visited the board on and off for years. In that time, I have witnessed great kindness and support shown to many. Although chronic, there are still peak times uncontrolable by meds. I am up at 3:00 am still wrestling with the pain of a CH that started as a migrane at 10:00 pm yesterday. the best thing I can say about it is that I have been happily distracted the two times my 20-month old daughter awoke crying. It felt good to hold her.
I am writing because I am not weak, physically or mentally. I have beaten CH before and will this time. However, there are times when I wonder how much pain people can take and how much disruption of life. I also wonder what the future will bring.
I may well be viewing this message board from my office tomorrow with one eye open and an 02 mask on my face. Otherwise, I may be viewing it tomorrow night during the wee hours while burrowing a fist into the offending right temple. In any event, although I am reluctant to ask, can anyone lend some perspective to me? I seem to have lost mine for now. I have a three year old son, a 20-month old daughter, a caring wife, friends, a house, a good job, the whole deal and I really want to enjoy it all. How do I (we) do that?
Thanks.