Posted by Linda Howell (205.188.200.148) on May 13, 2001 at 20:13:12:
Thank you all for giving the slap in the face, so to speak. I need to know someone, anyone cares. I am not being dramatic or anything like that, my life is too far down the tubes to waste time doing that. The H.A.'s are brutal lately, really brutal. Instead of my usual 3 to 5 per day, I'm getting hit where I can't control it anymore. No sleep, no home, only one kid who gives a damn, really. Living out of suitcases, and living without my best friend who died recently. I burst into tears at any given moment, almost surprising myself. My emotional stability is in serious question and even though I WON"T do away with myself, I keep hoping someone will colide into me on the freeway and just make everything go away. I'm tired of this constant pain! and I'm tired of being a grown-up, and having to smile like nothings wrong.
I thank you all from the bottom of my heart for being here, for being the loving caring family that MY family should be and aren't. Linda