Posted by Linda B on April 07, 1999 at 15:13:54:
I have learned how to deal with my CH,but when I hit the worse part`s of my CH I can be a total bitch. In being this total bitch. I`m lossing something very dear to my heart. Something I thought I would alway`s have even in death. My son is very supported of me. His 14. My daughter only being 8 has a hard time watching mom have another CH attack. The person that I thought would alway`s be there. The person that I thouhgt would help take up the slack when my CH was at it`s worse, has walked out on me and our children. Yes my husband has left. This put`s a new twist on my CH. I thought it was bad before, but now with out him here I have to go through this all alone. What make`s me more upset than anything is my children have to sit back and watch. They dont have away out anymore. This is so unfair to them. I really hate my husband for doing this to our children.
Sorry for rambling. I just had to get it out of my system.
If he would have gave me some kind of warnig. Some kind a clue he was going to walk, I think I could have handled this alot better. But for it to hit me all at once it`s hard. I have to be stong for my children. I have know time for a brake down. When I finally will have that time for the brake down I`m well deserved it will all ready be to late. So for now life goes on in it`s weird little way. I know I`ll make it through. I am a survivor. If I can go through CH for 25 year`s and counting I can go through anything. Sorry for droping this on you all. Just had to get it out of my system.
Hug`s to you all Linda B