Posted by Jeanie (208.160.180.36) on April 13, 2001 at 15:11:06:
Hi fellow clusterheads....i just finished a crying jag, and temper tantrum; and my poor husband was the victim! I stood in the kitchen, threw my hands up in the air, and cried that I didnt feel well, between my clusters, no smoking for a month, and weight gain!! It was quite a show, and very unlike me....just feeling very emotional. Thank God, he understands! I'm in the middle of trying to find the right med(s) that will stop my cycle....and my wonderful doctor is working hard with me. But still, i'm feeling very angry this time; usually I just get sad and wimpy.
I'm angry that people just don't get it about clusters; they cannot fathom the degree of pain. I get mad at "normal" people that complain about their cold, or sore throat, or sinus headache....BIG DEAL!!!!!!
No pain is like our pain.....no pain!! Im mad at the stupid insurance companies that will only pay for 3 Amerges for a 30 day period...how lame! Now if our condition was life-threatening; there would most likely be a "American Cluster Association", and there would be fund raisers, and big donations to find a cure.......if only these "power" people knew the agony and pain we were in! Oh well, guess I got stuff off my chest for now...I love all you fellow sufferers, and pray for all of you!!! Jeanie