Posted by A concerned friend (161.184.81.207) on March 21, 2001 at 17:59:10:
In Reply to: Let me tell you about today posted by Gary on March 21, 2001 at 13:28:45:
Gary,
A good friend of mine has asked me to post this to you. For reasons that can't be discussed here, this person doesn't want their name posted, but if you press my name in blue, I can send you the email address if you want to respond to my friend. Please draw strength from these words and know that they are coming from the heart....
To: Gary
Tell me if it's death you feel that will bring you peace to life?
There is no way death brings peace, not to you, and not to those you leave behind. Peace comes from love, and there is no love in suicide. There is only heartache and all the pain that reigns after. The reality of suicide is that it ends your suffering right now. The suffering that comes after is unimaginable. Is it that you want your pain to end now, right now, and not that you want to die? Is it that you want it all to end now because another minute you can't bear to take? You've taken years of this suffering and you're tired. I know, I really do. I know how it feels to put your hopes into your dr. thinking they will help you end your pain. Instead their callous behaviour is like a slap in the face. I know you were hoping for understanding from your dr. and instead she poured salt onto your wounds with her words and attitude. You posted here, and you said this is my last day. Let that mean this is your last day of suffering alone. This is the day you reached out to us, this is not the last day of your suffering. I can't promise anything about your clusters leaving. I can't promise the pain will end. I CAN promise you that people care about you. I CAN promise you you're not alone. I can promise you that in the future, maybe only a matter of a few days you will be stopped by something beautiful, and you will be so thankful that you didn't take your life. We were all born for a reason, whether we believe it or not. [Please mail my friend]for my address and let me know what i can do to help you. Let us help you find a dr. that does care. These drs. are out there. Let us help you find a way to live with your suffering. There are options, there is hope. It is just very hard to see it right now.
My prayers are with you Gary. }