Posted by Donna (63.14.15.94) on February 27, 2001 at 22:09:22:
Every now and then someone comes along and says something so profound that it makes me feel like a little speck in the presence of a giant. I wonder where their wisdom comes from. Surely they are more highly developed than I am.
I am not one to do things on the spur of the moment.
When I make up my mind, it takes a lot to change it. I am not a person who likes change, so I usually weigh things pretty well before making a decision.
I haven't been around much in the past 6 months, haven't talked to many people and didn't think I amounted to anything useful anymore as far as OUCH was concerned. You all know how much I believe in all of us working to promote awareness and that we are the ones who will be instrumental in the finding of releif, be it in medication or a cure.
Whatever. To make a long story short-I neither expected nor was I prepared for the amount of e-mail full of love that I received. The decision that I had made took me 6 months to initiate because I was torn between you guys, and what I feel is a moral issue.
But at any rate, two wonderful ( and damn it, they are both married) gentlemen and I have had tons of correspondence over the last 24 hours. They were quite insistant that I re-think my feelings, etc. They both have that "higher intellectual reasoning" than me. That, along with the mail from all of the others has convinced me that I should remain a link in the chain.
If anything good came from this , it is that at last I
got this burden off my chest (can't really afford much
off my chest) and I can put it behind me now. Almost.
I love you guys!
Donna