Posted by Nancy (216.236.17.46) on December 01, 2000 at 13:09:10:
In Reply to: depression, how many of you suffer from this? posted by cher on November 30, 2000 at 17:04:28:
I think there are different kinds of depression.
When my cycle starts I go into denial at first, I guess that way I try to protect myself and there by the beast will go away...yeah right.
The longer the cycle the more down I get and try to find ways to keep from getting too down. Try to take one day at a time and even one attack at a time and not let my mind rush forward, which I don't always do right.
My daughter who doesn't suffer physical pain went into mamic or bipolar depression last year and last Dec tried to take her life with over - dosing on her seizure medication. I will never forget the call..."Mom I just tried to kill myself, Earl is taking me to the hospital I love you and I'm sorry I did this."
I watched her for months after and I can say, I've never been around anyone who is so depressed and no control over it. I have a lot of respect now for that type of depression does to a person and would never want to walk in their shoes. I watched her mood change in 15 minutes time. They get so "nothing", like a lump of nothing, and there is no way you can change how they feel.
At first I didn't understand why would she be so depressed and why didn't she see all her blessings...but I learned when a person is in such depression...they just/can't see the good. They are just void, in a deep deep hole. All I could do was just watch that she didn't try to take her life again and be there for her.
Now I have some understanding what a person feels like when they have that type of depression and would not want to walk in their shoes.