Posted by sailpappy (205.160.191.53) on November 25, 2000 at 02:41:18:
In Reply to: UNCONTROLLED PAIN posted by SKOR on November 24, 2000 at 23:27:00:
for fighting this thing, Your wife and Kid must be very important to you, Mine are where I gather the strength that I need to continue.
I use no drugs at all because I was faced with the same delimma your in some 20 years ago or more. At the edge of insanity,on the blink of doing myself in, I had a vision of what it would leave for my family to have to face everyday for the rest of their lives.
They are pretty much helpless in this and to stigmatize them forever with such a deed was more than I could do. I've seen a life time of smiles and wonderful events since that day that make me realize how much I would have missed had I not gathered the strength to fight.
I use cold water running over the affected side to cool me to goose bump level, I put my hands and try to make my wrist get as cold as possible to stop the pain, It takes a long time sometimes and shorter times on other attempts, I try to focus on anything other than the pain, I see visual images in my mind and try to ploy them to the happy events of my life and this helps me get through each attack. I have 3-12 attacks every day, 8 today or yesterday now! it's time to start the new tally for this day. 3 am and I've had the first for the day and the last for yesterday was at 12:30. I'm up for the day for If I try to sleep again it will only cause another.
You can deal with it my friend, and thanks to the wonderful people here, your no longer alone in your pain! we are always here, one of us always! Don't give up, as corny as it sounds Zen will help you deal with it! Pappy