Posted by Sian Scovell (24.115.166.19) on November 06, 2000 at 11:49:26:
In Reply to: Re: Buried Alive/ Carl posted by Linda B on July 22, 1999 at 12:25:58:
I have been depressed for over 3 years now. I'm only 14 now and I already want to give up everything in my life. I have no hope, every time things start to look up, something worse happens to me. For the first two years of my depression no one knew about it, I kept it all to my self. Last year one night when I got really drunk I told one of my friends. Nobody really knew want to say or do to help me, so I just kept getting worse. This summer in August I told my parents, this was not intended. I had gotten really drunk one night, gotten in a fight with them and told them. I am on zoloft now, but it isn't to my disadvantage. I take too much and OD on it all the time. I was an alcoholic for the last past year, but since have tried to stop the bad habit. It has sort of worked but I still drink often. With all the drink my depression has gotten allot worse. I've also been to allot of different psychiatrist but it’s really easy to lie to them and convince them that I am all right. I cut my self and think over other brutal ways to end my life. I just can't stand it anymore; I don't know what I did wrong in my life to deserve all this pain. I want a way out, and fast.