Posted by Susan (208.31.40.157) on October 11, 2000 at 21:11:19:
the part of me that wants to wallow in my misery doesn't want to be, but nevertheless, i am all right
i am the kind who will mask my depression thru humor
helping others makes me feel better about my situations
i am going through many personal things which i can't talk about, at least not here
the thought of suicide did run amock in my brain
i have attempted many times in my life and have kept others from doing the same
it easier to stop someone else
i put it down to fear of failing that saved me
the depression is still there
but i am still here
sue