Posted by Alane (205.188.196.46) on September 19, 2000 at 12:36:56:
OH!! So good to be home. My 3 - 5 day stay turned into a 12 day stay. The county hospital did not want to admit me because the patients were violent so they sent me to a private hospital in Chico. It was a beautiful facility and the staff were wonderful. The groups were also wonderful. I never thought I would enjoy group meetings but I truely did enjoy them. It was like the board here, I got to see that I wasn't the only nut on the tree. I cannot put into words how much better I feel, partially due to all the meds I'm on. To add insult in injury my clusters are starting up. I have had 5 CH in the last 5 days, piss. I am going back on the varapamil tonight, I wanted to try the shrooms but with everything else going on I think it would be better to stay with what I know. But, I want to thank you all for your support and encouragement, If I hadn't posted the message about my pending suicide when I had and have all of you to respond I wouldn't be posting this message now. Thank you all from the bottom of my mending heart.
Alane