Posted by Cheryl (12.29.77.21) on September 11, 2000 at 08:03:32:
Thank you guys for being there for me. This weekend was very trying. I truly thought that Donald was absolutely loosing his mind and taking mine along with his. He quite taking his preventatives because he was convinced that they did not work.. I went to the store and came back with our son and found all medication in the trash. Unopened of course! So here I go digging to get it out I knew/hoped he would change his mind. It was the worse weekend ever. Nothing I could do was right. I went to get dinner he wasn't hungry. So my son and I hauled up in the bedroom to watch TV and keep out of the way. He came out of the bedroom later expecting dinner on the table and was upset telling me to go ahead with my merry life. MERRY LIFE yeah right!!! I fixed him something to eat and yelled through the door it's on the table and I love you.... Caleb & I went to bed. The next day (Saturday)was not much better he hurt and hurt and blamed everyone (me) and who ever else was in front of him. I just continued to tell him I loved him and tried to take care of him. Begging him to take some of his medication to help him sleep. Finally Saturday night after he was angry at me but not hurting. I came out of the bedroom and looked at him as he held his head in his hands and told him. I said Donald I Love You but whats more important is that I MISS YOU.. He had not been there even though he was. I wasn't able to live in my own house it was awful... Sunday morning I awoke and he had started taking his medication again. Halleuiah (sp!) can't spell that but I can spell AMEN. I fixed him a breakfast and notice as he went and got his own medication. Thank the Lord, I thought about you guys the entire weekend. Ya'll were my source of inspiration, my backbone to keep going. This morning was the first morning in a week that Donald got up and went to work. No headache yet.. I want to tell each and every one of you that I love you guys very much and wouldn't have made it throught with out you.
LOVE,
Cheryl