Posted by tammy (24.69.48.14) on September 03, 2000 at 13:11:17:
In Reply to: NEED FEEDBACK! Suicidal, depressed, Anxiety, Panic Attacks posted by Alane on September 03, 2000 at 02:21:12:
I myself suffer from Clusters that leave me depressed.Ever since these clusters started I have also become paranoid.Not knowing if it has anything to do with these clusters.I have to push myself to function in the real world as I myself am a professional seeming to be a outgoing individual.Everyone thinks I am the most confident most well rounded person they know.But if they only knew what I was really feeling every waking momment of the day.I can't sleep well as thoughts of even listening to my breathing makes me shudder.I can't ride in a car as a passonger as thoughts of not being in control of everything in my life has become overwhelming.I worry that I am a freak of some sort but also know where my heart is.Alane I want you to know your not alone and if you need someone to talk too I will be here to listen.I don't want to ramble on about myself as the embarresment will take it's toll.I hope you can talk about this to someone.Someone you trust will listen and be there for you.I also have a cousin who if doesn't get sun is suicidal.they have put him on some meds that are working for him.He is now living a amazing life as a young man who's career is rocketing and who is more outgoing than most.He is currently Barefoot waterskiing in Canadian National compitions.We almost lost him two years ago but with the help of his Dr.'s he now is living the life some of us only dream about.
Hugs and Kisses
Tammy