Posted by lc bob (162.93.14.68) on August 07, 2000 at 12:48:08:
In Reply to: Husband suffers posted by Penny on August 06, 2000 at 08:30:15:
hi Penny ...
i'm 2 years chronic ... just a babe in the woods compared to some of the 20+ year human steel here. but ...
i hear ppl laugh - just laugh - and i want to kill them. how dare they enjoy life? i cannot abide others having fun, being happy, making plans, going out, or living normal lives in any sense of the world.
then i realize what i'm feeling. how dare i? it's not their fault i'm a Y2K silas marner. now i hate me. 5 minutes ago i hated them. mood swings? we're poster children.
i'm getting better at it, tho. so will your hubby. this is a learning experience. we will fail some tests. but we are more resilient than weeds. trust him. he'll show you what the word strength means. it's not so much surviving the most devastating incapacitating life-shit-on-me periods of indescribable misery imaginable - but also to allow other beings to live without it.
every pendulum has a fulcrum. we swing. but supporters like you hold us up. be strong for him. he is burning all his strength just existing - for now.
pain freedom is a human right
-lcb