Posted by pinksharkmark (196.3.74.234) on June 25, 2000 at 10:20:35:
I am a wimp.
Always have been, long as I can remember. Minor pains that others would shrug off, cuts and scrapes and burns (once had second and third degree burns over a significant part of my upper body that eventually became infected.. yikes!), trips to the dentist (had three impacted wisdom teeth extracted once...yikes!) etc., have always bothered me more than they would bother normal people. So, just to top it all off, what do I get? Clusters! Oh, joy!
When I was a little kid, a doc did a pain test involving pins, scratches, feathers.... can't remember all the details, but I guess it's some kinda standardized neuro test-type thingie. He announced to my mother that I had an exceptionally low pain threshhold, so I really should re-think my boyish dream of pursuing a career as a circus performer who lies on beds of nails, walks on hot coals, eats glass, etc.
Years ago, before Imitrex was invented, a doc once asked me how long my CH lasted if untreated. I laughed so hard I thought I'd choke. At the first sign of one, I'll gobble whatever is at hand that I think I might stop the pain. Never had the guts to actually experiment with "riding it out" to see how long it would last. Never occurred to me.
I repeat... I am a wimp. The wimpiest of the wimps. King wimpy.
August's posts make me cry like a baby. There's no way that I could deal with what she does. No way. I just don't have that kind of strength in me. I can barely deal with my own demon, and it's not half as frequent as hers. Also, so far anyway, my demon will eventually retreat after I eat some Imitrex, so for the past few years I've never had to fight him for more than an hour at a time, and my cycles have never lasted longer than sixteen to twenty weeks. So far, anyway.
That's good, cause I am a wimp.
If August, or anyone, wants to act wimpy from time to time, good! It'll mean I'm not alone.
pinky
ps to jonny:
I don't care if you don't like the word, bro, for me it fits! :)