Posted by Carl D (208.4.19.44) on May 14, 2000 at 13:30:51:
Well, I got to get on-line for about five minutes yesterday, and only have a few today. How am I? Well, yesterday wasn't so bad, but last night and this morning has been. I've been getting hit hard lately and, well...Thursday night/ Friday morning was almost my last night on earth - lets just say that!
After waiting since Wednesday for my meds to be refilled, I finally got fed up and called the docs office Friday morning and told them "If I don't get my medicine today, I check out today!" They called it in about an hour later (after waiting 3 days.)
It helped alot Friday afternoon and yesterday. Today, I don't think anything could help. Not doing real good, but I am fighting this. Seems to be a battle royale at the moment. I will probably be stuck here for the remainder of the day, so I will try to work on the book some, maybe some music - and not think too much about it until I get hit with another one and have no choice but to deal with it.
I know I am not alone in this, but on this side of the board I am. I do not have 'real support' outside of this board, and am thankful I have you guys.
I also found out Friday afternoon that my battle with the government (Satan himself) is only half-won. I have won the disability - but still have to fight for SSI/Medicaid (Supplemental security income.) If I don't get that, I am still up a creek. I am getting more and more frustrated with these people, and will ask them tomorrow, "How much does disability pay? $430. a month? Could you pay all of your bills - rent and utilities and everything, and still survive? Okay, now why do you need to even question whether I need this or not?" I hate the system.
I need to go for now. I got zero sleep last night after a few hours the night before. Now I am back in the itchy eyed, yawning vein. I need to take some medicine and try to lie down soon.
Peace,
Carl D