Posted by Bernadette (204.115.229.51) on March 23, 2000 at 14:14:27:
In Reply to: Flipping out bad!!! posted by Carl D on March 23, 2000 at 11:10:20:
Carl,
My prayers and thoughts are going out to you. I have been having a difficult time myself trying to deal with this alone. You see my husband is away right now and I have been feeling quite lost not having anyone to talk to or understand what I am going through. I am not one to say that I would kill myself but the thoughts of having someone else do it to me has crossed my mind. You are truly not alone and I do understand that you needed to vent, it happens to everyone. I am glad that you are feeling better, at least in the sense that you don't want to die. We Clusterheads do suffer and it is so hard to go at this all alone. I myself have just started to see a councelor due to the depression and loneliness that I have been feeling. I have not had anyone to talk to in a while so I did feel like this world would be better off without me but then I know that it would be much to hard on my husband and my daughter to lose me so I decided that I needed help fast before I found myself losing my mind. All I can do is reach out to God and ask him to take away this pain that I feel in my head and the loneliness within my heart. Things will get better for you too Carl, they will get better. Take Care
God Bless
Bernie