Posted by August (206.103.56.36) on March 08, 2000 at 23:46:18:
I've been getting hit hard these last two weeks. So hard I try to conserve energy by not getting back up again. I've noticed that my pain scale keeps changing on me. 5 years ago my 10 is now my 7 or 8. I wonder what my 10 will be in another 5 years.
Another thing that I've been wondering is what would be the big deal if I stopped all meds cold turkey. Right now I'm on Topomax and verapamil 280 mg. There is not a med out there that works as far as I'm concerned. There isn't a pain med out there that works either. Why should I take this crap into my body if it doesn't do me any good? Anybody else out there med free?
Now a Sonnet from William Shakespeare before I go.
(4 lines from a sonnet)
Like as the waves make toward the pebbled shore
so do our minutes hastened to the end.
Each changing place with that which was before.
I like those verses. How many minutes are we in pain? How many are we pain free? Each stretch of minutes is like a wave reaching to the shore. The waves disappear into each other. We have to keep riding the waves until the end.
Here's to living every minute even if some of them are in pain. The minutes we are free of pain are truely glorious.