Posted by Dave (152.163.207.81) on February 26, 2000 at 02:46:47:
But this beast is trying his best to pin me.
I am amazed how easy it is to forget how powerful
he is.
I remember that he could hit very hard,
but then when he turns it all loose,
I think how did I take this before?
Drugs? No, he just laughed at me last time
I threatened him with those.
At this point he's kicking my ass.
I keep thinking maybe soon I'll jump up
and like the old Bruce Lee movies...
wipe the blood off my chin, look real pissed,
then proceed to beat the living...out of him!
At this moment though I can hardly type
the computer keeps trying to shut off because
I've been "idle" for to long.
I'm trying to concentrate, wonder if I read this
tomorrow or whenever, if it will look like the
rantings of a mad man?
She will be here Sunday...
I won't be able to pick her up...
&%*$!!
Not how I wanted to welcome her home.
I'm stubborn, I know it will end
I will not give up.
I should quit talking to myself!
There, every little smile is at least
a sign I'm okay, huh?
I'm just here trying to tell myself that.
Bending someone's ear trying to find a little
dignity in that I can still function.
That he only thinks he's winning.
Funny how one day I can be studying new things,
the next feel accomplishment out of finding
letters on a keyboard!
Thanks for letting me take up some space here,
the real fight has come, knew it was coming,
He's one mean son of a ........