Posted by Carl D (208.4.16.160) on February 15, 2000 at 11:59:40:
Hi Gang, I missed you guys!
I have been offline for awhile. Long story (lets just say I used up way way too much I-net access and was cut-off for awhile.)
Elaine, Margi, Riccardo,Phil and Dave - Sorry I made you guys worry, but I couldn't find another way to get online and leave a post. I am alos limited to my time online now, so may not be on as much as would like to be. It has been hard not having my support group around. After a couple of not-so-bad days, the last couple have been too much to deal with alone. Sorry I did not get any messages until today. I also saw on the caller ID that Elaine called trice!!! I am sorry, didn't get any messages until today. Glad to know someone cares. Like I told Phil on the phone, I feel like I am closer to you guys who are so far away than I am to the people around me.
I am having a bad time right now, but no need to worry. If I was gonna off myself, I would have done it yesterday while I was in my zoned out - depressed and wrecked state of mind. Didn't do anything except have attacks and sit like a catatonic zombie with my head in the gutter.
Elaine, I'm glad you are doing better. I was worried about you too. It sucks to not be able to get online and know how everyone is doing. I'm just coping with this hell.
Hope everyone else is doing good. And Nancy, I look horrible in that picture, but if you want to send it to Bob P go ahead - just tell him to draw horns on me or something. I have a much better pic I'll send him when I can get it scanned.
Peace and PC,
Carl D