Posted by Carl D (208.4.16.248) on January 27, 2000 at 09:34:48:
I managed to get a couple of hours of zzzz last night in between bouts with the beast. Had 2 attacks - both tens!!! A little more clear headed today, but still a wreck.
My body is mad at me. It seems to think I need about 40 hours sleep to catch up on the deprivation and how much it is affecting me. Unfortunately, my head disagrees.
Now I am just awaiting my documentation from Michigan. I contacted my old boss who took me to the emergency mental ward after my suicide attempt and he helped get the phone # to the place. And so the wait continues.
Hoping everything comes through soon. It would be nice to find an understanding doctor who is educated in the way of Clusters. Maybe then I can find something to get these @#&% things under control.
Until then, I fight for sleep and peace of mind. The humorous posts have been a nice distraction for me, I must say. I went to church last night and got hit with a 7 near the end of service. I know alot of people don't believe in God here, but I strongly believe that if it were not for Him, I would be dead by now. I am amazed I am not anyway.
Oh well. Gonna try and relax my mind today. Have been stressed out for the last couple of years straight!
Peace,
Carl