Posted by Susan (4.54.47.127) on January 17, 2000 at 09:45:34:
In Reply to: Pain as mechanism for euphoria-seeking brain posted by Q on January 17, 2000 at 02:01:39:
I dig your brain!
I have read your stuff over and over.
As I am not so familiar with the techno jargon, I wanted to make sure I fully understood.
Now I'm ready to give my 2 cents.
I have used a line from a song for years to state the same:There is a smile when the pain comes.
There is a feeling of euphoria.
I am an advocate for med-free methods in treating clusters. I actually feel stronger when attacked, I am drained and depressed afterward.
The pain doesn't make me euphoric, my ability to use the pain 'against itself' does.
I become quite intimate with it during an attack.
I wonder if there might be a martyr syndrome at work. I feel there is nothing I can't get through to the pint of believing I am invincible. If there is someone who has the 'yeah right' attitude towards me like they don't believe my pain is as bad as theirs I feel like a martyr. I want to help others to do what I can do.
I use displacement,relaxation,meditation and focus as well as breathing techniques.
I take a line from a movie:you have no power over me. I apply this to the demon. I can even move the pain to a different area by wishing it. I have not been able to banish the demon by simply wishing, though I plan to. I believe in the possibility.
I have one question for you:
What about remissions? Is there no need for the euphoria at those times? I was in a remission for 4 yrs.
I hope you plan to stick around for awhile.
sue