Posted by Russell (129.15.68.163) on January 14, 2000 at 14:34:38:
In Reply to: Pain is ... posted by Q on January 14, 2000 at 12:29:09:
If I'm not on meds for the attack,
I get a profound feeling of euphoria when
the beast leaves.
I've learned to enjoy it, at least there is some
form of reward, however brief.
It lasts (heck I don't know) a few minutes.
The grass is greener, the sky is bluer.
Kind of a buzz or tingle over my whole body.
I remember once trapped in a car during an
argument with my wife (she almost always drives
now, headaches on the highway are dangerous),
I zoned out with a headache.
When I came back she was still going strong.
I had that quirky little euphoria smile, when
she looked at me and said,
"What the hell is wrong with you?".
(Of course, she knows now,
"You just got rid of your headache, didn't you?")
I didn't say a word, just sat there zoning.
I had won the argument, and didn't even know what it was about.
It is wierd, the little things I hang onto,
to justify the pain.
P.S. My wife is very understanding, but we all have our moments.